hah.

Dirty thoughts.

realizations.

I'm still the same insecure little 12 year old that I was 7 years ago.
I hate talking on the phone, and get awkward and strangely over observant of the way I speak to people.
I want to do something big, I want to show them all that I can do it and that what they say doesn't get to me.
Am I fooling myself by thinking moving to a bigger place will solve my problems?
I have the most sudden, unexpected, and life affirming realizations when i'm alone, smoking a cigarette.
As much as a look okay and confident, i'm still a quivering mess when something bad happens.
I like to be spontaneous, but the comfort of having a plan B is always a nice thing too.
This summer has made me lose a little bit of faith in people.

Random bouts of summer.

......lazy more later

This is coool

Haha. Palette Cleanser.

".....you're gonna love my nuts"

Sophomore Slump or Comeback of the Year?

I'm in such a major slump right now. Everything feels distorted and out of place. Like a bra that doesn't fit anymore...i miss old times with good friends. i don't even know how i got to this place. it sucks, i have no control. i hate this feeling. i want to know what's causing everything to spiral this way. I like the summer, but i think i need the familiarness of school to keep me on track. I wish i was where i was a year ago. everything was good and solid. it hurts so bad i just wanna cry. i need something. i don't know what to do to alleviate all this frustration. i want a change. i drastic one. i need a change. now.